About Me:
I live in Riverside, Ca. since 1971, I was born 1933 and raised in Fort Scott, Kans. I am single, I lost
my wife, in 1992. She died of Cancer. We had 8 kids, 6 boys and two girls. Lost one boy when he was 9 yrs. Have 13 Grand kids.
I live in a small Apt. at a nice Apt. complex, here at Riverside. I belong to Bally's fitness center, which I try to get at least two workouts it a week, sometimes three, but it getting harder it seems. I like to ride my Motorcycle, a 1983 Honda 1000 cc.
Mostly I stay in the bible, studying for understanding and trying to let the Word renew me.
My testimony
Our God is in control
Before we came to God most of us were trying to live good and descent lives, those that were raised and baptize as Christens. I guess some of us that wasn’t baptize or around religion it was different, I don’t know and I can’t speak on that.
I was Baptize when I was two week’s old and raised Catholic, going to confession and trying to be a good Catholic, and live by the law. I was never able to accomplish that. I tried, Married had 8 kids and was always in the fear of God. I tried to do right but, it seems the harder I tried the worst I got. I ended up drinking and was on Libria and Valium for over 30 years. 57 to 88. I got so bad and so depressed, nervous, confused and out of control that I couldn’t do anything and I ended up taking disability in 1968 and continue keep getting worst. I was so depressed I used to spend 3 to 4 months in bed at a time, until I would start drinking just to see if I was still alive. and to see if I could get moving. This went on progressive until 1986 when my wife left me. I became homeless and alone, People was trying to help me and get me to God but I told them they didn’t know what they were talking about, and don’t try to tell me because I’m Catholic. and I knew God. which I did, and I knew the law. but the devil can say that too. But I didn’t know the Grace of God or the personal relationship with God. Just the fear of God, and I have the Catholic church to thank for that. At least The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom, and the law is what bring you to God. I met a Baptist peachier and good friend name Morris Lee, that used to come and see me, and tell me how simple it was to accept Jesus, and I kept telling him that it just couldn’t be that simple, he told me it was letting go and trusting God to do the work in you, that I can’t do it. He was right and that what I been doing ever since, I still get in God way, and try to get ahead of Him, I have been bound by religion all my life and taught that there only one way do it, the right way, and just do it, sounds good and I brought it for years. But it don’t work, It might work for Michele Jordan, but not for me, when God pulls your strength, you die or turn to God, or like Nebuchadnezzar eating grass in the field like a cow.
I have been trying to keep it simple and let go and let God. But still get caught up in my own self effort, and end up beating my head against the wall. I still have a long way to go, But thank God I am not where I was. I know He is taking care of me, I do what I can to help people, but it very little, I'm too busy trying to take care of myself stay out of an institution, live independently and trust and stay in the Word for understanding and letting it change me. And standing on the promises of God, that He who began a good work in me, will finish it.
But no matter what happens I know He is my only hope, and it His righteous I am seeking, not my own, I know I am helpless to save myself. No it’s not by might or power, but by His Spirit. It is in Him that He is making a way and directing my path. May all the Glory and honor go to Him.
